***Copyright Jessica Wolfe Reifsnyder, 2014***
"The Last Snow"
The guests will start arriving at
nine o'clock. The air is chilly, the ground grey. Gabe sits at the front window
staring out into the yard. He's been insisting all day that it's going to snow
tonight. We haven't had snow in years. Not wanting to discourage his
excitement, I just keep saying "maybe." Though I worry that he'll be
crushed when it doesn't.
"Sweetie, why don't you put on
your coat and go play while it's still light?" He turns those bright blue
eyes toward me. "Will you come out, too?" he begs. I ruffle his
blond, feathery hair. "Can't right now, kiddo. Gotta' finish making the
food for tonight's party." The corners of his little cherub mouth turn
down. "I'll play with you tomorrow, okay?" His face lights up.
"We can make snow angels!" I consider telling him we won't be able
to; instead, I just smile and say "maybe."
Guests start arriving at nine
o'clock. The air is cold, the ground bare. Gabe sits at the front window,
staring out into the darkness of the yard. He insisted all day that it's going
to snow tonight. We haven't had snow in years. The doorbell rings. I pause on
my way from the kitchen to the front door as I see him there, forehead against
the glass. I feel a strange, vertigo sort of déjà vu. He turns his ice blue
eyes toward me and I feel a shiver across my skin. "Will you come out
now?" he pleads. I frown. "I can't leave the guests, Gabe. Besides,
it's pitch-black out there. And freezing! We'll play tomorrow." He turns
back to the window. I shake my head and hurry to answer the door.
It's eleven o'clock and I'm already
longing for an empty house and my warm bed. My feet are killing me. I turn on a
burner and watch the blue flame. I wonder for the hundredth time why I decided
to host a New Year's Eve party so soon after. . . after. . . I frown. I'm
suddenly light headed and dizzy. I grab at the counter to steady myself. I rub
my temple and strain to think. So soon after what? Maybe I've had too
much to drink.
The guests are already leaving at
12:01. They're all leaving. They're rushing out. Screaming. I look for
Gabe. He's still sitting at the front window. "It's snowing!" he
insists. He turns to me with clear, icy eyes. "Will you come now?"
he demands. I look out the window. There are soft, white flakes floating
downward, settling on the cold ground. I'm in shock. No, wait. Not white. Grey.
Pale grey. And not flakes; confetti. I stare, perplexed.
In the window there is a flashing,
flooding of light behind me. Red, yellow, white, orange, blue. My house is full
of light and I can't breathe. I grasp for understanding. I feel so confused as
I stare at the ash falling outside the window. It is only then that I notice
myself - between the glass and the kaleidoscope of light - and beside me. . . I
look quickly down at Gabe, whose frigid hand has taken my own, then back at my
reflection. Only mine. I am suddenly hot. And cold.
"Come on," he says, turning a hollow, frozen gaze toward me. "Let's go make snow angels."
"Come on," he says, turning a hollow, frozen gaze toward me. "Let's go make snow angels."
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